LOML and I chat often about how we feel here in Germany. Usually, it’s on drives around here while the girls are occupied and can’t get into too much trouble. This past car ride chat stuck in my head. It boiled down to a single word: bittersweet.
That’s how we feel about living here in Germany. We have grown to love this area and these people so much these past 9 months, yet, we desperately miss home and our people that are still there. We are starting to get a foothold into service and volunteer work here and, yet, we feel guilty about leaving such needy and important tasks that we were helping with and making a difference in peoples’ lives back at home.
It hurts to think that we will have to leave these people that our hearts have grown for. It hurts to think about leaving the amazing and breathtaking green hills of Germany.
It hurts to be away from family and friends while having amazing new people in our lives, kinda’ like we’re cheating on our peeps.
It’s crazy that a person can be filled with such conflicting emotions. How can my heart love 2 lands so much? How can my heart grow to love even more people?
I think God made us to be able to love and keep learning to love more and more throughout life and its changes. And LOML and I keep coming to the realization that we need to choose to be content with where we are now, not focusing on being sad about the past or sad about the eventual future. We need to be open to God’s path in our lives right now and let Him write this story of our lives. Because He writes a far better story than I could ever imagine.